Photo editing and Kevin BeReal

April 11, 2024

AND NOW it’s the morning of the 13th, an the only important thing is getting my photos in here. Looking back at my phone, I’ll choose ones that I took back on April 11th, like this one photo of me editing the photos that I took for pay for the Private Director’s Association. I've honestly REALLY, REALLY enjoyed editing the photos, which makes me think that if I’m going to work at all, I need it to be in photography. I also literally just enjoy running into little technical problem on my computer. Like in this photo, in the upper right hand corner it says something that I plugged in “can’t be accessed.” That’s also something that’s making me happpy. I will say, I’m a little concerned because when I’m feeling good and happy, I “don’t want anything to change.” And that just makes me think I’ll never move out of thise house. Like to be honest, that wouldn’t be the worst thing, given my relationship with my dad, but I DO still think I’d like to move out EVENTUALLY. OK, I don’t even know how to cover the last few days in here. From the 11th, I should also throw in my photo I took at the gym with my trainer Kevin. I literally remember writing down that the fact that I missed the first five minutes of the session because I forgot to set an alarm was something that was making me happy because it was an adult mistake to make. Tragically, I can’t find the notebook I was writing in. I seem to have lost my notebook $18, or something like that. I’ll have to look around in a second to see if it’s floating around the house. Anyways, right now I’ve just gotta put my makeup on and finish getting dressed for this morning meetup with my mom. Talia is driving us. Speaking of Talia, the first thing that I wrote in my new notebook #19 that I just started is, “Talia pisses me the fuck off because we were raised together but she doesn’t have a brain injury [like I do].” ALSO, I’m a little scared of the thoughts I’m going to come to when I’m out with mom this morning. We’ll see what happens. I’ll get dressed now though!