Trash but for different reasons

July 8, 2022: Today is a trash can again. But not because of CRP this time. I never did take a photo of CRP. One of my many regrets, the biggest of course is going out and getting hit by a car. Looking on the bright side I’ll appreciate everything more when this is done. That said it still sucks ass. Well today Mercedes cancelled on me and Jake stood me up on the date. I was planning to go over to his house and play pickleball but I obviously didn’t. Probably won’t. He still hasn’t texted or called

back or anything. I had Mexican food with mom and watched one episode of Merlin. I also ate good food today, Panera for lunch and Mexican from somewhere for dinner. I took photos of that too but decided to use this because this is how I feel.

Mom said I might not be ready to date. I think I am, but whatever. I understand why people would nope out of this situation though. I would if I could. I just wish Jake would have told me if that’s how he feels. Maybe he’s on another date or doing something more fun. Actually, I’m sure he’s doing something more fun. There’s no way in hell he’s suffering more than me. Most people aren’t. Like the kids at the gym today. Done.