Spanish meet with Carlos, Francisco, Alec

March 5, 2024

Alright, yesterday was awful so I didn’t do this. I felt like I was “lower than I’ve ever been,” which happens to me sometimes. Today is better so I am doing this. This morning I went to Methodist and volunteered there. For the first time, Kathy let me onto the computer right away, which I like because it’s just painful to watch the way she searches for people without using control+f. This is the first time she put me on the computer right away. Usually I have to suffer through watching her search for people for like an hour. After I volunteered there, I came home and went to a Zoom call with a psychiatric nurse from Mayo. Papa was on the call, and I understood why but I kind of wish that I’d been able to do it alone. I also found an old notebook from the beginning of 2021, and it really taught me how depressed I’d been back then. I literally wrote down, “thank God I wrote so much in the contacts notebook, shows me how much I struggled in early 2021.” It’s a little notebook that’s labeled “contacts,” and I kind of feel like it was my diary. I also got a response from Playwright’s Center, who I’d emailed about potentially volunteering as a photographer. They’re covered for this season, but she said she’d put me on the list. At night I went to a big Spanish meetup, which I usually couldn’t have attended because Tuesday night is an Open Door day. I went to the meetup, and I was still wearing my “yo hablo español” pin I’d had on for Methodist. The people who I ended up in a good conversation with were (Peruvian) Carlos, who I know from the Mojo meetups, a Colombian named Francisco (from Cali) and an American named Alec. We talked for hours and I even showed Carlos my post from the last time that I'd included him. I found it by just searching “Carlos” on my phone in the Wix app. That honestly really showed me how important this blog is. I’m able to explain it to people using the daño cerebral as the reason why I can’t remember things and have to write stuff down. Tonight I also drank a raspberry sour beer, and it was many hours before I had to drive home.