Photos for Open Door, Spanish meet, Jodi’s gathering

August 19, 2023: Didn’t even come close to doing this yesterday. Kind of didn’t wanna do it at all. I’ll just write through the random photos I have with no notes. Basically in the morning I took my meds at 6:30am and drove out to Lakeville to shoot an event for Open Door. When I was there, a guy asked to take a picture of me with a different woman, which I have the photo of. Honestly the way I felt about the shoot was that I missed a bunch of good moments for photos. I didn’t feel like my photos were that good. I also thought it would take a lot more time than it did. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to get to my Spanish meeting on time, which was at Dunn Bros in downtown. I went to the Spanish meeting expecting to have a great time, which is why it was even more disappointing when it wasn’t amazing. I didn’t actually have any deep talks with anyone this time. I did get my BeReal perfectly on time, with a guy I talked to the other day named Luis looking at the camera. He’s the one in the pink-ish shirt, and I remember that the guy next to him was Carlos, whose family was from Colombia. I think the other guy’s name was Matt, but I’m not checking my notes for now. After that, I went over to a family picnic at Jodi’s house. I stayed for a bit, and actually had my medication there too. I at least succeeded in having it 12 hours after my morning dosage, at 6:30pm. I had it with half a small avocado and some cottage cheese in it, for about 14g of fat. I was going to run home to do that, but we decided that Jodi had some food that would work. Then I went home and played some phone games for a bit, which was kind of a failure, but then I also managed to get logged onto Talia’s free trial of Hulu and watched a bit of the show she was recommending to me, Vida. So I kind of succeeded in staying home and not going over to my dad’s house , even though I saw him for a few minutes at Jodi’s. The other success at Jodi's was that I was able to talk to the guy who I talked to a lot the other day, Mike, who's living in his van now.

No grateful things because I wasn’t grateful for a lot yesterday. I’m not sure why the day felt kind of bad even though it had some successes in it. I guess the answer is just, depression is a liar.