Mom taking picture of the spoon, us after movie

February 18, 2024

Ok, so my last three days have been a complete period of depression. The thing that makes that really obvious is that I didn’t write a single photo of the day for the last two days. So this morning, after I was feeling a touch better in the morning after messaging Heidi and asking her if she and Jorge wanted photos of themselves together some time. I went ahead and posted the two sentences I’d written for the 16th. Yesterday, I attended trivia with Liam, which went aright, but I didn’t take any photos for this project. Or rather, I have one BeReal that I took of Lily and Alex at our table at trivia at Burning Brothers, but I wasn’t together enough to actually write a blog post on it. 

Well, today I literally just hung out with mom all day. In the morning, I went over and worked out with Bernie at the JCC. I really should have taken a photo but I was still feeling a bit depressed. I’m not sure if he noticed, but he’ll definitely notice when I become un-depressed a bit. Then, close to midday, mom came over and took me over to her house. Then we watched How to Train Your Dragon. I quite enjoyed that, and in the middle of that movie, I literally took the note, “maybe I can just dip a toe into happiness.” I’d been assuming that if I couldn’t be on top of the world like I was a month or so ago, that the only other alternative was “never happy again.” During the movie, the thought occurred to me to create a tattoo in Spanish that says something along the lines of “no extremes.” I like when I can actually think about future plans like that again.