Meetup and Spanish book club

April 13, 2024

April 13, 2024

Ok, writing this one the same day, for once! This morning I went to work out with Bernie and Neil again, and I literally wrote important notes first thing this morning. It started out at 7:45am, when I wrote, “V2 Day today bc it’s SO important for me to poop!!!!!” Then I wrote, meds at 8am! w/half avocado. I’ll go outside to talk to Papa  now.” THEN, I had a very important conversation with Papa. It started with me telling him that I’ve literally been recently “defining myself as “'unhappy'" “just because I’m close with you.” We also talked about my fight with mom yesterday, and I said that, “I was glad she got mad at me because it felt more normal for me.” Not quite 100% sure on my memory of how that convo ended.

He told me too, “if you’ve gotta be here, I want you to be here in as good a way as possible for you!” and “I’m not like mom who wants to control everything. You do the laundry when you want to.” Before the talk with Papa I wrote a note down in my “makeup notes” notebook that said, “been thinking if I’m too close with you, then I can’t be happy.” I think I started our talk with that line too. During workout with Bernie/Neil, which I attended exactly on time, I also made the note that I absolutely HAVE to bring ice water next time, and preferably leave it in my locker so I can only enjoy it at the end of the workout. During the workout Bernie said, “21 is only good if you’re tryna get into a bar or playing Blackjack.” Maybe I should throw “play some blackjack” on my any.do, to make sure I actually get it done. I literally also decided early on in the workout that “tomorrow is a 0 vape day for sure.” The next note I wrote is that, “I decided that tomorrow would be a 0 vape day before I knew my vape died.” It kind of feels like God is supporting me in this moment. That’s a thought I came to literally in this instant LOL. OK, let’s get farther on in the day. I attended a “café polyglot” meeting, that was a mix of people who spoke Spanish, French, Portuguese and Italian. I had a GREAT time there. I LOVE anything that uses my language skills, which are pretty damn good. Oh, and then afterwards, something came up in the “amigos de hablar y caminar” group that Diego runs. It was a meetup at a brewery, the StormKing Brewpub & BBQ place. OK, I’m gonna shower now, since I already took my makeup off and I feel like my hair’s a touch dirty. Thank God I’m writing these. I never could have been happy without this stupid “blog.” OH, and I’m also trying to start a fresh collection of people’s random business cards, the way I used to when I lived with Hannah in Northeast pre-TBI. I  thought of that today since I got a business card from one of the girls who I met at Canteen with the Café Polyglot people. It was Geneviéve Chamberland, who was the one random French speaker at the meeting. Everyone else spoke Spanish, but she was still included, even coming like halfway through. At that meeting, I LOVED the way we all identified ourselves. We each had a nametag with our names and the initials of the languages we spoke. The one girl whose number i got was Milkbia, and she spoke “ES, IT, POR.” Spanish, Italian, Portuguese. [OS] Later, with Diego&Co. I also bought the cheapest beer on the menu, a “semi-sweet cider from traditional American apples.” Only like $3 for that! Which is great since I’m starting to watch money a little more closely.