Gym w/Bernie and Neil and Methodist meeting w/ Margarita

April 17, 2024:

041724: Ok, writing this one the day of, for once! This morning I went to work out with Bernie and Neil again, and I literally wrote important notes first thing this morning. I wrote... meds at 8am! w/half avocado. I’ll go outside to talk to Papa  now.” THEN, I had a very important conversation with Papa. It started with me telling him that I’ve literally been recently “defining myself as “‘unhappy’” “just because I’m close with you.” We also talked about my fight with mom yesterday, and I said that, “I was glad she got mad at me because it felt more normal to me.”

OK, now it’s actually the 20th because I didn’t write the rest of this on the 17th. I’m still in the tricky situation of I can’t find any of the notes I wrote in the last few days, so in a way that makes me be not quite sure of everything that happened.

HOWEVER, I DID end up video chatting a new guy who I found online in some way. I think he said he actually found me through my freaking website that has all my blog posts. But yeah, video chatting him for like two hours was definitely the highlight of my day <3!!!!! Let’s see.... for the rest of the day we had an organizational meeting at Methodist, which felt nice and adult to accomplish. I asked Margarita for a selfie afterwards, where you can see my purple eyeshadow in the photo too! She came a a few minutes late to the meeting, but overall was there for the whole thing.