Fogo with Lea, Kiyara, Isabella

Jan. 31, 2023: Well this morning I called Jodi and it made me feel a bit better. Still on the phone. I’m honestly thinking that I want to quit Fogo for now and maybe go back when my brain is recovered enough to be a server. Ubah is coming over now. She won’t solve all my problems either. Talked to Mom and Sarah and Julie about wanting to commit suicide. I guess I’ll just go to Fogo tonight and not talk about quitting. Well honestly I’m just feeling like driving alone will make me happy. Having the car at my house and being able to drive anywhere I want. I also did just apply at Lunds. Tonight at Fogo it was so dead. I took this photo with Lea and Kiyara and Isabella but Isabella and Lea were sent home at like 5:15. By the end of the night there were only 113 reservations. Anyone could have easily done it alone. I didn’t have any good conversation with anyone. I also managed not to tell anyone I was thinking about quitting. Even when it was tempting to tell Kiyara who I worked alone with for a bit after the others were sent home. Honestly none of this matters because I’m feeling almost happy now. Tonight I drove home from Fogo and dropped Papa off at his house and then took the car back to my place. Crazy that literally today I called the suicide hotline that Whitney gave me. Not feeling suicidal at all now. Mainly because I have the car at my place and will be able to drive it tomorrow. Now I’ll just eat the Fogo food I took home. I think tomorrow will be good. I plan to go the the gym and maybe I’ll see Hannah. Well tonight I kind of wished I didn’t close because was so boring. At the end I just grabbed a bunch of shit from the salad bar. The other good thing that happened is that I got my 15$ tip from Suheily from last Sunday. She said it was good that I had the 5$ change to get the even 20$ from her. I also called mom and finished the UMN document and applied for different job at Lunds.