Fogo with Isabella

Feb. 7, 2023: Well today I cleaned my house a bit and took out the recycling. Caroline suggested some of the shit on mom’s list so I decided I’d do that today. I randomly woke up before 5 and then had red berries special K. Honestly I don’t know how I organized my life before this project. Reading them to Whitney is honestly a side note to the project. I don’t even have my photo yet I’m just writing. I’m sure I’ll go to the gym today. Honestly the other thing I did today that’s noteworthy is I added that I have a brain injury to my Tinder bio. Honestly that message I sent someone on Tinder is really significant, “So I don’t wanna get off til I can make a shit ton of money. I think it will happen but probably in a couple years. In the mean time I’ll just stay on disability and be able to drive myself places, which isn’t a bad life. Thank God I got my license back.” Honestly driving alone does make me happy. Now I just need to find shit to do with my life that doesn’t earn me over 1400 a month, and friends are a huge part of that. Funny how it changed from work being the thing that matters to friends being the thing that matters. Now I’m at the gym and I’m hungry. I fell asleep after I typed the first part of this fortunately. Slept til like 11. I’ll grab McDonalds or something even though Mattheas told me to avoid eating out that much. Literally I weirdly feel happy but I don’t know how long it will last. I just ate lunch which was leftover lasagna from Pizza Luce, not McDonalds, and then went over to papa’s, which I don’t love. I also read him the long note I wrote to tell to Whitney. I might read it to Hannah on Thursday too. Honestly I just filled most of a day with the gym. I really do think that finding something else that I can drive to to occupy my time is going to be the answer. I also applied at Mississippi Market in the gym locker room on my laptop.

Today Fogo was bad. I was feeling happy before Fogo but after I was feeling like I’d never be happy again. Don’t wanna write through my notes. Honestly I’m not eating much tonight because I’m just not hungry. Today I was feeling happy before Fogo but after I wasn’t at all. Next day now. I’m writing the rest of yesterday from my notes, which I have in an app on my phone at Mayo. My morning was actually pretty good yesterday. I cleaned and asked Hannah about Thursday and we decided on 6pm. I also grabbed some tampons from the gym so I have some extras now. At the gym I wore two tank tops and didn’t have a bra. I also talked to Isabella a fair amount at Fogo. I told her I was considering cutting down my hours. There were 306 reservations and it was weirdly busy. Nikki even said that we had all the rooms full when we only had 276 reservations. The cool thing that happened was a woman recognized me from the Rotary speech, her name was Jennifer. She was at Fogo for the Latino Chamber Event. I tried to find her later but couldn’t. Isabella also told me that she wants to be a novelist, and I told her that I love fantasy. Kai, who I got the write up for talking to, said “you’re not a waiter yet.” That’s true. The people also came in who had changed their reservation from the day before at 10pm. It was for Piper Dillon and I told the couple thank you so much from the bottom of our hearts. Ya know I do feel like I’ve gotten most of this from yesterday out there. I’m just at Mayo Clinic right now caring enough to write this.