Fogo with Ariel, Amoreina, Kiyara or Isa

Feb. 5, 2023: Well holy fuck I got more confused today. Thank god for this project because it helps me organize and record my thoughts. I also didn’t lose my notes today. When I first went in to Fogo Matt told me that Maggie was on vacation so that I might not help serve even though it was a Sunday. I didn’t serve today. I also told Matt I wanted to cut my hours and stay on disability. I did wear the big earrings today, though I took them off later because they were annoying. I also wrote down that Chelsea wasn’t in this photo. I also told Ariel that I was considering being a busser and that servers might make too much if I’m staying on disability. I also sent a picture of some notes that talked about personal stuff to Hannah. Also wrote that I wanted to shower tonight. I’ll do that later. I also told Matt I might want to explore being a busser and he told me that I drop too much shit. I don’t think so, but he’s the boss. Today also the busser Jai asked me to help bus a bit and to show some new people how to set tables and it really made me feel like if I’m staying on disability I might prefer being a busser to hostess. Had my meds at 4pm. I also told Alysen that I was considering cutting down my hours to stay on disability. We talked about how she spells her name too. Today I also asked Hannah to go to Florida with me in May, and no response yet. I was honestly hoping to do something with someone tonight but I guess that’s not happening. I did also talk to Mattheas a bit today about my whole plan with staying on disability and working less and said we should still hang out. He said that his place is a mess so we can’t go there for now. Honestly Mattheas is someone who I’d like to maintain a friendship with. For dinner we had chicken alfredo with tater tots, that Matt made. Honestly the big thing I’m confused about is whether I should leave Fogo. In a weird way tonight made me want to stay because people’s conversations were interesting. So I guess just cutting my hours is an alright plan for now.