Brunch at McCormick & Shmicks, sculpure garden, puzzle

October 7, 2023:

Ok, so today I had my meds at 8:21am with some yogurt. I had some Zofran first too. Then I felt a touch tired, and glad that I’d brought over a crew neck sweater from my house yesterday. Then, I went out for brunch with mom and Talia. We went to a place called McCormick and Schmick's, a place that mom had gift cards to from when I first got the cancer. We also talked a bit about my recent depression, and mom said that “you will inevitably get depressed again,” so don’t forget how it feels when it lifts a little bit. We had some nice talks. I ordered the breakfast sandwich and a black tea, like Talia did. We also talked about the reason things were feeling a little better, which is that my shunt is actually working right, my drug is working better now that I’ve gone up on the dosage, and I’ve had some important “realizations.”

For the rest of the day, mom and Talia and I walked around the sculpture garden and mom showed Talia around her apartment, which she hadn’t seen after it was remodeled. During our walk in the sculpture garden, I realized that it was the first time I was actually reading all of the descriptions of each sculpture. At night, mom said that she wasn’t feeling well and just wanted to lay down, so she didn’t bring me back to her house. For dinner, I had spaghetti back at my dad’s house, which I ate in the correct quantity to take my meds with, at 6:11pm. Then, this guy who also has ECD responded to me, since I’d randomly texted him today, when mom gave me his number. I also decided to mainly just work on my new puzzle on the dining room table. Talia and Papa were going to the play The Importance of Being Earnest, at the Guthrie.

I will say, that when I first kind of emerged from extreme depression, I was feeling very very good, just in comparison. Even a day later, it's faded a little bit, but I still feel potential hope for the future.

Grateful: I’m very very grateful for being able to actually have real conversations about depression with Talia, which had been hoping for.