Bernie and Dinner with Jodi + Tina and Jeff

March 24, 2024

I did the last two days today too, so I’m just starting today’s now so that that won’t happen again. I worked out with Bernie this morning, and he said that I’m making massive progress. Unfortunately, I can’t remember how I was doing when I started working out with him, but I believe him when he says that. I also just remembered a benefit Liam gave me last night, which was suggesting listening to audiobooks. He played some Eragon for me, and I’d like to continue that. It’s dumb I forgot it for a while. For my night time, I was thinking I’d go over to a Spanish language Meetup feom meetup.com at a coffee shop, but I got there and it turned out that it was a different day than I thought it was. So, I just bought a cortado and then I ended up heading over to Jodi’s house at night. The photo I have there is just a screenshot of my BeReal that I got on time in their house. Frankly, I’m deeply understanding why I seem so social based on my photos. The problem is that most of the events I go to don’t lead to actual deep connections with people. In my photos from today, I probably have more of a connection with Bernie, who I work out with a few times a week, than Jeff and Tina who I see randomly. TIna is often in one of my yoga classes and she said she’d plan to see me there in the future. I admit that one of the other things I noted when I was over there was all of the stuff that they talked about that I couldn’t imagine ever developing an interest in. That’s what kind of makes me think I’ll never develop an actual interest in anything ever again. My dad calls this the depression talking, but that doesn’t make the apathetic feelings go away.