Sink

April 5, 2022: The sink captures the confusion and awfulness I feel. I just feel like I’m a mess and everything about me is a mess. It’s like a jumble of mess that smells bad and tastes and looks bad. It’s a confusing mess that has no beginning and can keep going on forever. Really it’s just a jumble. That’s the best word I can find, jumble. I feel like I’m a jumble right now. I honestly don’t think life could get any worse than this. Maybe if I jumped off the balcony and ended up in the hospital. That would be worse. It’s like someone was eating a meal and left half of it behind because they didn’t care. Really it’s just a mess that has no end.